Throughout my adult life, I have had the persistent desire to leave where I am and start over someplace new. This is a desire that makes my chest ache with yearning: for a new life, for new scenery, for new opportunities. Constantly there are plans being made in my mind of where I could go and who I can become. The question is, what is stopping me?
ANXIETY & DOUBT
My biggest obstacle is that I do not know how I will do it. Where will I get the money to move? How will I get a job? (I am a college student and the job market in the US is terrible) Where will I live? Will I be able to make friends? How will I afford it with no savings? If I’m struggling where I am at right now, what makes me believe I’ll be able to thrive elsewhere?
These are all questions that constantly replay in my head. These anxieties and doubts are my biggest deterrents from picking up and leaving. But the desire is there. I know that God is a faithful God, a God who gives us the desires of our heart, but in my humanness I feel STUCK. I feel trapped to my circumstances.
What do I do? How do I make it happen?
My hope is that I am eventually able to make this desire come to pass, but until then, I’ll keep planning and keep dreaming.
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